My heart feels a little weighty today. Not heavy in a very sad way, but definitely full of emotion. It’s as if something’s been brewing for a while, and today is the day for a good cry, a good release.
Maybe it’s a little heartbreak over sad news that’s splattered all over the web and TV? Maybe it’s the product of two months of hard effort putting the house on the market, and the great relief that has come with receiving an offer? Maybe it’s because I am eager to see my sisters? Or because I’m on the brink of a great accomplishment? It is, perhaps, the culmination of all things. It’s both lovely and deep. I think it’s a healthy feeling – one that isn’t displacing gratitude and overall contentment with my life.
While I don’t know what’s causing my heart to feel this way, I have great clarity in the moment. How does that work? I really can’t explain it. I have a strong pull, almost magnetic, to invite God’s spirit, the Holy Spirit, inside my home. To sit with me at the kitchen table as I write. To stand next to me as I cook dinner at the stove. To sing over me as I put the tiny king down for his naps. It’s a beautiful, addicting longing – and I don’t want it to go away. Today, it’s the only thing that makes this weightiness bearable.
This song doesn’t say a whole lot, but it pulls at me. It’s perfect for the moment. A song that’s sung to an anchor. A song that’s grounding when I feel feel my emotion will carry me up, up, up and away. A song that reminds me that someone greater is in control.
p.s. I’m so thankful for songwrighters. The world needs more of them.